Some happy vibes to offset any glooom:

Elephant pants with lesister on a random day!

loverboy on my laplap

Christmas gifts received in totale from Childfirst! 
 Love letter all the way from Taiwan!

I guess some things are really just way out of your control... For one second, you're just naturally going with the flow 'cause things just feel right and the trust is there, and then the next second, you go 'uhoh, what have I wrecked? shit.' (I should go and bang myself on the wall. Hard.) Sure did wish the clock would turn back on itself but no, that doesn't happen. Why are things so perplex?

right now, it's like a aftermath of a train wreck at the place a little to the left, underneath the sternum.